A few necessary words from Ira Glass:
“Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.”
Gasp – does this post mean that I’m implying to the Internet at large/the four people that actually read this blog that I have good taste? Anyone who has seen the clothes I wear (without the tiniest hint of irony) could convincingly argue otherwise. But this is something that I think I need to regularly remind myself of, especially right now, and this is also part of the reason I started this blog. I have so many ideas and spend so much time making grand plans for theoretically awesome craft projects that never come to fruition, only because a little voice in my head tells me that I won’t be able to meet my own expectations. It’s a waste of time, and also a waste of money because I usually buy a bunch of supplies but then get too nervous to start because I know I’ll just mess it up (the most damning piece of evidence? the contents of my fabric drawer). I can only get better and stop mentally beating myself up about my abilities if I practice.
That being said, school is taking over my life. I’m sitting on (almost literally, my desk is that messy right now) at least four different projects that I can’t wait to write about. But first I need to work up the courage to finish said projects, even if they aren’t mind-blowingly awesome in my eyes. Ugh. Deep breaths. I can do this.